kissmycloset

11:38 pm: i know a girl. she is trying to figure out who she is. she knows how to have fun. but then she forgets. she likes the sun. she likes the grass but not without the green. laughng is her favorite. and she needs help. its not me. haha.

05:25 pm: im done with school
tomorrow was supposed to be my last day of school but after adding up my hours and remembering 4 extra hours i graduated today instead.
and since my friends didn't know. we are going to pretend that i graduate tomorrow again. just so we can keep up with the gummi everything party we are going to have for me. best theme this week/ever.
yay me.

04:10 pm: i graduate school march 27th.
oh my.

04:36 pm: my tongue is pierced. yesssssssssssss.

09:57 pm: hi i am going to graduate school in march and i am tired of school and i am getting sick im going to a bridal convention on sunday because i can .i got a massage to day by soem guy that has been stalking me. he's hairy. i miss my old life. kamakaze ate my pants and then peed on them, one time i went to twigg's to watch katy owng play her guitar and she was pretty amazing and i am getting one of her cds yesssss. i need a halloween costume. maybe a queen of hearts thing. hmm i got a hair cut and its short and emoboy/jackie o.
exciting? yeap.tight.

Tags: im hitting on you

06:00 pm: i am gonna hang out with cecilia today. because shiloh went to arizona with mike for the weekend or so. i like my school again. i made a new friend.
go away come back go away come back go away come back.gone for good?
yeah that is what 3 years was. i feel sick thinking about it.
thanks a lot mj.
now its time for me to drink away my problems right? as you run away, yet again.
why dont i just drop off the face of the planet for you? oh wait i think i did.
and nena does judge just not to your face.
jesse is entertaining. im glad he's around. hes a cute kid. please dont read this. i had a good birthday. i kicked a weight today, it hurt bad. im not nice enough or good enough am i? im just adding to the problem but im clearing my mind a bit so i am selfish everyone is i want to leave this place for a while.

08:22 am: grandma maryjo's baby hamsters look ike puppies. its so creeepy ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.i have to go to school now. i havent been there for 2 days ...i like sleeping too much to go to school sometimes

04:48 pm: i didnt go to school today instead i slept until 2ish because then mj woke me up what a loser.

11:25 pm: im eating my feelings and also bottling them up. it doesnt feel good but what else will you do?cd's. no i lie (to my mom) i feel shitty. nobody is here to talk to . im going to go crazy

08:20 am: i hd a dream that i played two violins.

10:49 pm: i feel like "can't sleep clowns will eat me" right now

06:22 pm: i should be cleaning my room aaaaaaaaand putting together this bed that wil now bw mine butinstead i am online aaaaaaaand begging my brother to help me put together my bed becaus eits really really heavy and hes stronger than me gees where is mj when you need her? gosh never around.shes also stronger than me. today at shcool i got bleach on my hand and it hurt and it welted and it turned my skin white. good story.

08:27 am: ive been drinking waaaaaaaaay tooooo much coffee lately.

04:16 pm: "Get past some memories, and you might be surprised at how bright your present and future really are. While it's tempting to get lost in nostalgia, make sure you're not drowning yourself in old emotions."

my horoscope is scary true.
but i just read for fun not like i believe.....or something

i have hair that is purple. i like it. a lot. i was purple on friday night. oh and saturday and a little bit now. hahaha.

i think im sickish, and that sucks. umm i feel very grown up at the moment, but at the same time very childish. im so mixed up at the moment
have a job and i go to school and i havent talked to any friends except for holly and mj. and thats because mj lives with me and holly goes to school with me.

07:56 pm: uhm i mean can i give up now? this is too much for me.

07:52 pm: you know, i hate sharing. and i am jealous, so back off.

09:37 am: hmm sometimes it feels like the world has moved on and left me behind....is that a song lyric or something? i dont know but that what ive been feeling a lot. a lot a lot.

04:26 pm: finally
It sucked you in, it dragged you down
To where there is no hallowed ground
Where holiness is never found

Paying debt to karma
You party for a living
What you take won’t kill you
But careful what you’re giving

Can you feel a little love
Can you feel a little love

Dream on dream on

10:01 pm: lovely words
katy wong wrote these songs and i enjoy them.
"she pickin up the peices from everything thats dead

putting it together in the dark again

i dont want to leave her

i sit here quietly

watching her as she whispers

to herself silently

'cause i think shes shaky, and she might do something stupid soon

everyones saying that shes the best girl in town

i agree completely, i just wish she could see

that everythings wonderful all around her

i wish she could open up the sadness inside her

and i dont wanna leave her, she might do somethin stupid soon

i think shes barely alive

i think shes starting to cry

if she would only look up at me

maybe she see the girl that i see


and here is my mid-90's angry girl tune



You could make it so I can't breathe and it would be okay

Pour salt into my cuts and still, I'd be with you for days

'Cause the way it's workin

With you pushin me

And the way I need you

As far as I can see

I'm addicted

You keep me out late at night, and in the morning I'm so tired

But I'm hungry for you night life now

You're a dirty man, you're a stupid thing

But not I guess that you're everything

And let this be

An official indicator

Of my brains confession

My hearts surrender

You can give me nothing

And ill be yours 'til the end

Don't you see that I'm killing myself?

Right here, and I'm out of control

Can't live in your arms, can't live without them

And you know, don't you, you know"

09:24 pm: oh lord here we go again......
"Pretending you aren't disturbed by what's going on will just lead to another bout of repressing. Recognize the truth of your feelings and deal with them instead of hoping that they'll just go away."